Welcome
back to Big Brother Secrecy.
Last time in the game of secrecy,
Lisa and Eva both tied for the last critical HOH title, submitting their answers
at the exact same time. This left JD to decide on the winner, and in the end he
chose Lisa to win the last HOH. She didn't chose him though and sent him
packing, making Lisa and Eva the Final Two! Tonight the eight jury members will
once again enter the house and question or comment on the final two. It's time
for, Big Brother Secrecy...
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As JD walked out of the house Lisa and Eva knew they had done what they set out to do, make the Final Two...
Eva
So we did it. The Liva. We pulled it off. After
all that backstabbing, betraying and lying, we somehow got each other to the
final 2. It's a miracle. Some people can't even believe it -- but it's okay,
because I've always believed that Lisa and I can do just about anything.
But I know the jury will be very bitter over these results. Lisa probably done
the majority of the backstabbing with James, Ellie and JD, and I've done mine
with Val.
But I cannot possibly believe why no one ever figured out we could have been
aligned. I mean, we never put each other up or anything -- people just naturally
assumed, I was with Val, or Val naturally assumed I had no one else but her. But
then again, Lisa and I assumed everyone was with everyone else. It is our
suspicion that got us this far. I'm proud of us, even though the rest of the
jury isn't proud.
Lisa
For the moment all I have to say is...
LIVA 4 LYFE
Voting out JD...that really sucked. Seriously, I love JD, and I mean that, he's an amazing guy and was a lot more real than most people I have met in these games. I know that I really caused him an intense amount of pain just now, but this game is for Eva and I. JD...I'm so sorry, but on a game level, this is what I had to do.
Eva has never won a game before, and she
deserves this just as much, if not more, than I do.
At first in this game, thinking about everything, I started out with only Eva,
and the long-gone Landon. Yeah, at first I was paranoid about her taking Landon
the wrong way. But you know what? In my first convo with Eva about this game, I
just remembered how much she means to me as a best friend, an ally, and believe
me, I wouldn't trade that in for anything in the world. She's been there for me
through everything and anything, game and nongame, for as long as I've known
her. And it means a lot to me, so much to me, that most of me hopes that she
wins this game, because she is an amazing person. This isn't just about winning
a game. It's about two close friends beating the odds, relying on each other,
and being there through thick and thin. This game has shown that true friends
are the people who matter the most.
The doorbell then rang, Eva and Lisa quick looked at each other, they knew who was standing behind that door and they didn't want to face them. The both grabbed the handle and opened the door, Landon, Donna, Krista, Brett Ellie, James, Valerie, and JD all walked in. Some happy to see Lisa and Eva while some just so angry that they walked right past them...
It was time for the jury to do they question and answer session with the two finalists. After conducting all the questions they were asked to vote for the winner of the game. Landon was up first...
(Purple = Lisa's Answer | Green = Eva's Answer | Teal = Jury Question)
Landon
Hey Lisa
and Eva...good job on getting to final 2...um I don't really have a question to
ask you because I know how I feel about both of you...so um good luck to
both of you.. and again congratulations!!!
ACTUALLY
I change my mind I am gonna ask a question, only to Lisa though
LISA - I remember when I was still in the game
you explained to me how Brett and Valerie and Eva were all in an alliance
together and how you thought we needed to get them out! now u keep saying how
you trusted Eva 100 percent and you were friends with her all along? So I'm a
little confused...explain please.
Landon, you were evicted every early on in this game. Within round one, everyone
knew we were allies, and very close allies at that due to what Krista was saying
about us. I knew that the both of us wouldn’t be able to survive in this game
for long after I heard that, otherwise you and I would have been nominated side
by side until one of us was gone. Yes, I trust you a lot, Landon, a great deal.
But the truth of the matter is that you were hardly there in this game, you only
made it to round 3.
I am friends with Eva, yes, I trust her completely. As for what I said about
Brett/Eva/Valerie as an alliance, that was just a part of my strategy. At that
point of the game, I was only with Eva from that side of things, and everyone
already suspected that group, so I had no choice but to further reinforce the
separate sides. I had a strategy, which I described before, to make Eva and
myself seem as though we were on separate sides of the game so that no one would
suspect us. I felt I could protect Eva, yes, but I felt it necessary to make it
seem like we weren’t together at the same time. This strategy worked rather
well, and the proof of it is that Eva and I are both here in the final two. It
was nothing personal against you, Landon, just a strategy.
Donna
Congratulations Lisa and Eva! I have been out of
the game for some time and the only time either of you talked to me was when I
was the first HOH with JD. Please tell me what happened in the game since you
left.
How many people did you screw or backstab. Who did you
have alliances with? I feel truly sorry to Valerie only. Because she really
trusted you two, why did you lie and hurt her so much. Of course I felt the same
way when 3 of my supposedly friends (Brett, JD and James) backstabbed me, I
asked them to save me and vote for Lisa, but I guess Lisa made sure she stayed
by making alliances with everyone. Lisa is that true? Did you use Brett, JD and
James to stay in the game?
Hey Donna! Nice talking to
you again! Anyways, here are my answers. If you have anymore questions, feel
free to ask more!
In the beginning of the game,
I had an alliance with Lisa (obviously, she was my F2 ally), Krista, Gerald and
Val. But as you know, Gerald and Krista was quickly evicted, and I only had Lisa
and Val for the rest of the game and I had not been approached nor had I
suggested to align myself with any other person in this game. However, even
though Val was my supposed ally, you shouldn't see things from just the outside.
Around midway through the game, Val never really proved to me that she was
completely loyal to me -- and when she decided to back down on her word and
voted for someone completely different in the F6, I knew I couldn't trust her in
this game. I had to take her out to ensure that the person who I was most loyal
with -- Lisa and I would make it to F2 without any obstacles. Val, to an extent
had backstabbed me, and I only did what I had to do so make sure my F2-er didn't
get betrayed. There comes to a point in the game where you are forced to choose
between one ally over the other, and I had to do that with Val.
Hi, Donna! I know we
didn’t get to know each other much at all during the game, but I hope that my
answers will help you understand my game play, and why I had to do some certain
things to get to where I am right now with Eva.
There is one thing that you first will have to understand about my game play. I
went into this game playing this game not for only myself, but for Eva as well.
So every strategic move I made was to protect the both of us to get us into the
final two. I must have done something right, because here we are right now.
Going into this game, I had a strategy. Eva was already kind of “in” on one side
of the game, with Gerald, Val, Brett, and Krista. So, I knew that what I would
have to do is to get to know people on the other side of the game, which would
be Ellie, James, JD, and I already knew Landon, to ensure that Eva and I would
be safe throughout the game. With that being said, my true final two alliance
was with Eva. We have been close friends for a while now, and we were always
completely open and honest with each other about this game. I also knew Landon
from before this game, too, and we quickly formed an alliance, and he even
brought Ellie into a three person alliance that we had for a short amount of
time. The problem with Landon being in the game was the fact that everyone
caught onto our relationship, and he was soon nominated and evicted. After
Landon’s eviction, I was not sure how close Ellie and I were on a one to one
level for an alliance. Also, around this time, JD asked me for an alliance, and
I felt it was in my best interest to say yes. If I had said no, then it would
have only caused more suspicion of me as a player. Right before you and I were
nominated, Donna, Valerie asked me for an alliance, in much the same way that JD
had. Eva was already aligned with Val, so I figured it might help us down the
road, so I agreed. I was somewhat aligned with one more person in this game, and
that was James. However, for a vast majority of this game, right up until the
day he was evicted, I never trusted James completely since he seemed to change
his mind a lot and keep things from me, like his final two alliance with Brett.
When it came down to it, yes, Donna, I had to first vote out James and Ellie. It
may seem like an awful thing to do, but you have to understand it from my point
of view and from my position in the game. I knew for a fact that Val held Ellie
in high regard, and even mentioned her as a potential alliance member to Eva
several times. If I should decide to keep Ellie in the final four, then she may
have likely jumped to ally with Val and taken out either Eva or I, or possibly
even both of us, if suspicion about Eva and my relationship arose. Also, I had
previously only been told of a Ellie/James/JD/Brett alliance just a week before,
and that was also kept from me by Ellie, James, and even JD, so, like anyone, I
immediately started to distrust them for not informing me of this. If they all
really thought of me as a *true* ally then they would have trusted me with that
information right away, and I would not have had to be informed about it days
after it was formed. I also had a very good reason for voting out James. James
was never entirely truthful with me. He kept a final two alliance with Brett
secret for me for quite a while, and I knew he was hiding it all along. Only
until days after Brett’s eviction did he admit this to me. It became obvious to
me that James was willing to be sneaky to win this game at that point, and so I
found it extremely hard to trust him. Also, something else that went against
James is that he had just attacked Eva earlier in the day. I just could not risk
some weird situation happening where James was the cause of Eva being voted out
of the game. I was trying to protect her and myself, and I would not let someone
who was a threat to her remain in the game. I’ll tell you why I had to vote Val
out in the next question. In the final three, I won my fourth HOH competition in
a row, and had a choice between JD and Eva. This entire game I played for Eva to
get to this point with me. Even when I was in a *comfortable* position, and I
knew she was not, I would do whatever I could to better protect her. She is
without a doubt, the best friend that I could have ever found, and I would never
and could never hurt her in any way. Now, I can’t lie to you and say that voting
out JD was not a difficult thing to do, because it was. It may not seem like it
at the moment, but I am a very emotional person and I care very much for my
friends. Voting out JD was one of the toughest, if not the toughest, thing that
I ever had to do in this game.
Valerie may have trusted in me at that point, but you must realize that I had
many reasons to not trust in her. First of all, I knew that she had a strong
relationship with Brett that would be a higher priority to her than me or anyone
else for that matter. There were also many things that I knew about in the game
that Val just did not open up to me about and kept from me. For instance, when
Eva was the “HOH” in the double eviction round, I knew that Eva was, and anyone
would be able to figure out who was after nominations were over. However, for
some reason, Val chose to not tell me that Eva won the HOH, and a true ally who
trusts in you completely would tell you something like that immediately. Yet
again, Val gave me more reason for doubt when she switched up her vote to force
a tie in the double eviction round. By the final four, I knew that Val did not
plan on taking me to the final two, as she had promised me earlier. She even has
admitted this in her jury questions, that she would have hurt me and broken our
agreement had she won the final HOH. Since I knew she would vote me out in the
final three, then it is not an intelligent decision to bring someone to the
final three who you know will not bring you to the finals.
Donna, I really hope you don’t feel like I made a bunch of alliances just to
save myself when I was nominated. The truth is that, when I was nominated, I was
actually not aligned with Brett or James. I didn’t even talk to Brett about how
to vote, and we actually rarely, if ever, talked about the game together. I
believe it was Val who convinced him to vote you out instead of me, and that was
not my decision to make, it was Val’s decision, and not mine. She told me the
day after she convinced Brett to vote you out, so I had no control over that
whatsoever, and that’s the complete truth. I was content with having only Val’s
vote on my side, but it was her decision to convince Brett to save me from
eviction as well. I already had an alliance with JD at that point, but that was
created a while before we were ever up on the chopping block. I had no idea that
you were aligned with JD, James, or Brett until you were evicted and you stated
their names. The votes that I felt I had to survive eviction at the time were
most obviously Eva’s, then Ellie’s, Val’s, and JD’s. I didn’t expect Brett’s or
James’s, but I ended up having them not vote against me for the round. So, I
just hope you don’t feel as though I was heavily campaigning to steal allies
from you, because that was just not the case. When I was nominated, I felt like
I had the votes to ensure my safety, and I’m sorry that people ended up hurting
you when you were evicted, but I really did not even know about any of your
alliances in this game until after you left.
I would also like you to rate the jurors. 1 being the person most deserving to win and last one being the least deserving to win. Also tell me why you put that person in that place.
8 - Landon - Gone to soon
7 - Krista - Although I love her to death, she was pretty inactive in this game.
6 - Donna - I liked you too personally, but you really slid under the radar for
the most part. I felt you could have done much more with your game.
5 - James - We had our conflicts, but I felt he was a strong enough player to be
in the F5. However, I felt the other 4 would have played a better game because
they are able to control their emotions better (ie: not yelling, or blasting or
bashing people)
4- JD - Probably because other than Gerald, he's my most favorite guy to talk to
in this game. But he shouldn't get any farther because Brett, Val and Ellie are
much stronger players.
3- Brett - Good strategist. Major threat. And not too trustable (that was his
major reason of getting evicted by his "alliance members".. because they
couldn't trust them). However, as "competitors" alone, I think Val and Ellie
were a lot stronger.
2 - Ellie - Ellie was naturally the house's "sweetheart." She aligned herself
with some of the house's strongest players and had them protecting her. However,
strategically, I felt that Ellie was not up to par with Val, maybe because she
also had less game experience than you.
1 - Val - She was honestly were the most strategic player to me and strongest.
That's why I was glad I aligned with you -- I would have hated if I went over to
the other side of the house and ignored such a strong threat. I felt that due to
the fact you had play more games than Ellie, you had more strategic moves and it
has shown throughout the game that you knew exactly what you were always doing.
7th – Krista – Krista just was
not around at all for this game.
6th – Donna – Donna, you were pretty much the only mystery to me during your
stay in the game. Conversations with you never revealed much of anything to me
about your strategy. It was just impossible to tell anything, so I feel like I
have to put you here based on that fact.
5th – James – James was in a rather good position in the game for a while. He
won an HOH, a reward, and had a pretty nice alliance to protect himself.
However, I have to place him here because of his major fault, and that was the
fact that he nominated someone with two penalty votes as a pawn, and further
exposed his real final two alliance and loyalty.
4th – Ellie – Ellie played this game very “under the radar.” She was always very
nice, and showed she could win the challenges to back that up, like the two
rewards.
3rd – JD – JD, too, played the game “under the radar” at times, but had a very
good strategy, and analyzed situations rather well to back that up.
2nd - Brett – Brett was always a very strong player, and had several alliances
to protect himself. He also seemed to be very persuasive, and was able to get
people on his side. If he hadn’t left when he did, then I know he and Val would
have made it all the way to the final two.
1st – Val – Val was extremely tough at all of the competitions, had alliances to
protect herself, and was just an all-around a good player. She also knew what to
say, and what to keep to herself. To me, that’s an important part, if not the
most important part, of being a good player.
Tell me 5 things you learned about me during the game. Also tell me why I should vote for you to win.
- You had an alliance with
James, Brett, and JD (and I actually didn't know about it until you were
evicted)
- Apparently, you are an alias (haha, someone told me)
- You were from Maryland
- And you were 59 years old
- You were always true to your word (ie: about not putting me up)
1 - You live in Maryland, which
is very close to where I live in PA.
2 – You’re an avid reader, just like I am as well.
3 – One of your hobbies is playing games, which you told me in one of our early
conversations.
4 – I learned that, while you may be quiet, you definitely are an intelligent
player who creates alliances that are very difficult for anyone to catch on to.
5 – You like to type in purple just like I do!
Eva explain to me why you voted me out over Lisa. I always thought you were very nice and I trusted you, why did you have against me? You asked me not to nominate you, and I didn't, I thought you would be more loyal to me.
Donna, I honestly had nothing against you. The only reason why I voted you out was because you were up against with my Final 2 ally, Lisa. Although we had a good amount of respect among each other, we never had any deals in this game. I literally had to choose between who I trusted more, and Lisa and I had a long history even before this game started.
Of course I am leaning towards Eva, since Lisa, you seem like such a backstabber. So Lisa please explain to me why you backstabbed so many people to get to the end.
Well, I hope that after
getting to this point of my reply to your questions, that you can understand why
I had to evict the people that I did. I was playing this game for Eva and myself
to make it to the final two. We kept this a secret, and I had a specific
strategy to get here with her. The people that I did vote out along the way, who
I had agreements with, had either straight out lied to me, kept things from me,
or gave me good reason to doubt their loyalty. In James’s case, he kept many
things from me. The first, and most important, being his final two alliance with
Brett. When he refused to nominate Brett, and then was suspiciously indecisive
about the vote between Brett/JD, then I knew for a fact that he had been lying
and keeping something from me, and that was his alliance with Brett. Also, he
was a threat to Eva, since he made it clear that he did not like her and argued
with her several times. In fact, had Brett stayed in the game, I’m 100% positive
that James would have backstabbed me to save Brett down the road. As for Ellie,
she left me out of a lot of things that she was doing in the game. She jumped
into an alliance with James/JD/Brett and I was informed of this by James days
after it occurred, not even Ellie herself. It just made me very wary of her, and
I no longer trusted her as much as I once had. If Ellie truly wanted to stay
true to our alliance, then she would have told me about that agreement, but she
did not. Also, I described her suspicious relationship with Val earlier, and so
that was more than enough reason for me to vote Ellie out. Now, JD, he, too, did
not inform me of the large alliance he had agreed to so I was not sure of him
for a while either. He also nominated Eva in Round Two, and I knew that from the
day he won HOH, but he kept that from me up until the final three. My reasoning
for voting out Val was described above, so I don’t see a need to go into that
again.
Good Luck! Remember I don't know
either of you at all. So my vote could go either way, so I will base may vote on
the answers to my questions.
Hugs,
Donna
Krista
I don't have any questions, just one comment
Everybody vote for Eva!
Brett
Congratulations you two on making the final 2. Be honest when answering my question, because that will determine who I vote for.
I am not bitter toward either of you because you ladies both played a great game. I'm not voting based on grudges or anything, because I don't really have anything to dislike you for. When it comes down to it you're both very cool girls and you definitely played the game better than I did. I'm going to base my vote on a combination of how you answered my question and how I think you played the game. My mind is NOT made up, in fact I have no clue who I'll vote for, but I just want to make it clear that I think you both played a good game and I just want you to be honest in your answer to my questions. Good luck ladies and you both deserve a pat on the back.
Eva - Multiple times
throughout the game I felt you were strategizing against me and there were a lot
of things that I've heard. Now don't get me wrong, strategizing is part of the
game, and I'm cool with that, I'm not mad about that, in fact I'm not mad at
all. I just want to know the truth now that it's all said and done. It's not
right for me to base a vote based on what I've heard, so I want the honest truth
from you. When I confronted you about the rumors that were flying around, were
you lying or telling the truth. Please explain if you would too. And if I at all
seemed rude or you felt I attacked you I'm sorry because you seem like a real
cool girl and I'm sad at the fact we really didn't get to form a bond here.
I didn't start this game trying to strategize you. But I must admit, after that
first confrontation with you claiming I'm telling people about me-you-Val's
alliance, I was kind of turned off because the truth was that I DIDN'T spread
any rumors about us, and what not. Then when you told me that the alliance with
you and Val wasn't true... I knew that was a lie as well, because it was obvious
that you and Val did had an alliance since of the start of the game. Even Val
admitted to me, so I didn't see why you denied it. So from that moment on, I
already knew you were a huge threat, and I had an instinct that if I couldn't
get rid of you soon, then you'll be the reason to my own eviction. You were not
only tight with Val, but you were also tight with Ellie, James, and JD -- and at
that point, it was starting to be the "major" alliance of the game. However, to
make things clear, the most strategizing I did was with Lisa (who, btw, was my
ultimate final 2 ally.. thus, everything we did, we have always consulted one
another), and when she won HOH (yes, she won, but no one believed that she did,
and I was blamed.), I really didn't care that I was being blamed, because it
would be more reasonable to appear that "I" to put you up, then for Lisa to put
you up. After much careful thought, we decided to put you up against what we
thought was another alliance members of yours - JD, so there was a lot less
chances of you staying. That was the most strategizing I did with you. I
honestly don't really remember our confrontations about the rumors (like which
ones you confronted me with), but if they were about whether or not I ever
strategized for your leaving, yes, I did, and it was with Lisa.
And Brett, I want to say thank you for NOT bashing Lisa and I the way the other
jurors did. I really appreciated that.
Lisa - Lisa, we really didn't get to know each other as good as I would've liked
to. When we did talk though, it was good, you seem like a cool person. I would
like to know however, if you voted for me when I was evicted. Now don't freak
out. I'm not mad if you did. I'm not basing my vote on that anyway. I just
remember having a conversation with you about that and you said "there is no
reason that I have to vote you out."..or something like that. I just want to
know if you did... and if you did, please tell me why?
Thanks, Brett! There are a few
things that I’ll have to address in your questions, some of which I’m sure you
will never be aware of until right now. I’m going to try and explain it as best
I can, and I hope I make sense when I do that.
Brett, I always thought you were a really awesome person, too, from the times
that we talked. However, on a game level, you were a very strong competitor. At
the point right before you were nominated in the game, there were several things
that worried me about you. The first was your relationship with Val. I knew from
very early on that the two of you were extremely close friends, and were without
a doubt out to protect each other in this game to the final two. Secondly, you
had recently approached Eva and accused her of many things that she just did not
do. Not only was that a threat to her, but when someone threatened Eva, they
became a threat to me, since I was playing this game for the both of us to make
it to where we are right now. A third thing that worried me about you, Brett, is
that when I was nominated, Val informed me you were going to vote me out until
the very last second when you changed your mind.
Besides that, more warnings came to me about your threatening position in the
game. Just days earlier, James approached about an alliance with himself, you,
Ellie, and JD. After hearing that, I was in complete “freak out” mode over mine
and Eva’s position in the game. (I know it sounds dumb to put it like that, but
I didn’t know how else to phrase it, but, trust me, I was freaking out!) For
such a large alliance to develop was a huge obstacle. I was aware that
James/Ellie/JD may be aligned, and probably were, but hearing your name thrown
into the mix was shocking to me. Also, when James made his nominations, he
really wanted to split up you and Val, but, for some “reason” he seemed to
utterly refuse to nominate you, Brett. Now, if you want to split up a pair,
wouldn’t it make sense to nominate them both to ensure that? It was then that I
knew that not only were you in a four person alliance, and an alliance with Val,
but you had backup final two alliances, with at least James. At that point, I
was positive you were aligned with Val and James to the final two, and Ellie and
JD somewhat, possibly even final two with someone else I wasn’t aware of. That’s
over half of the players in the game, only excluding Eva and myself. When Val
was saved from eviction, there was a large amount of doubt cast on your loyalty
to your alliances. I knew that it was the time for me to win the HOH to use that
to my advantage. So, the week you were nominated, it wasn’t Eva who won the HOH,
it was really me, and I do not want her to be blamed for a nomination she did
not make. So to answer you original question, no, I did not vote you out,
because as the HOH, I did not have a vote. I nominated you alongside of JD, who
I had feared also was rather close to you. The reason that I put JD up next to
you was to help ensure your eviction, since Eva and I felt that I could cause
Ellie to doubt your loyalty enough to vote you out, and I also knew that Ellie
was very close with JD. Yes, I suppose that maybe I was the major reason for
your eviction, Brett, but it was nothing personal at all, so I hope you don’t
take it like that. I just had so, so many reasons to fear you in this game. I
knew you weren’t on my side of things, and you had just about everyone else on
your side. You proved to be my biggest threat in this game, and securing your
eviction was my most difficult task. I realized how big of a threat you were to
my safety, and Eva’s, and I used a mistake of yours, saving Val, to my
advantage.
There is one thing I do want to
clear up real quick if I may. Me and Valerie are really close, but I already
talked to her about this and we never had an official alliance, my alliance was
indeed with James, Ellie and JD. However me and Val are indeed really close and
I have no problem whatsoever admitting that.
Also, I want to thank you guys soooo much for satisfying my questions.
Eva - I'm extremely sorry for accusing you of being HoH. I was getting played
pretty hard I guess. lol. I guess there was a lot of strategy in the game
because me and Val were never officially an alliance. I'll have to talk to Val
some more on that (lol). You're a cool person Eva and whenever I confronted you
in the game, it was in the spirit of the game and not in anyway a personal
thing. Good Luck girl!
Lisa - I wasn't aware I was looked at as such a strong competitor. It's good to
hear someone say that though. I also want to congratulate you because you
definitely played me and I was believing Eva was HoH. Great Game play. You're an
awesome person and I'm sure that everything you did in the game was purely just
for the sake of the game. Good Luck!
To Both - I'm sure outside of the game you two girls are awesome! I don't hold
any grudges because let's face it, you both played my ass and got ahead. I
RESPECT that. You beat me in the game, and in strategy, so in the end, I admire
you both. You're smart players and it's going to be extremely hard for me to
cast a vote one way or the other, because honestly, I feel you both deserve it.
I know my point of view is different from some of the other jury members, but I
do think you girls played one hell of a game. So congratulations and good luck!
-Brett
James
Congratulations Lisa on making the final two. Oh
how I wish that I could be there in that seat next to you but instead you
decided to stab me in the back. I'm just very confused with you Lisa. I'm just
shocked to actually see you in the final two no less. Your a backstabbing bitch.
I like you allot Lisa and what you did to me pissed me off like no other and I
thought how you handled the situation was absolutely hypocritical. I still want
to talk to you after this whole experience is over, I also forgive you for what
you have done but I will NEVER forget it. However; I just want you to realize
you played a phenomenal game and I still don't know if I'll be voting for you to
win. My vote just might go to EVA who was a lazy ass bitch that didn't do
anything this whole game but fly under the radar. I just want you to know how
badly you hurt me. I'm frustrated. Your so hypocritical.
You voted me out because I had a final two pact with Brett and I decided to talk
to you about it and then form one with you and you agreed but then all this time
you have had a final two pact with Eva? What the hell is that all about Lisa?
I don't' know what words I can use to express to you how I'm so disgusted with
you.
Yes you deserve to win, no doubt about that. I just DON'T vote for people who I
thought I actually was close with and then in the end I realize I was just being
led on.
Eva, to my knowledge and what I can gather from other people is... you flew under the radar and road Lisa's coattails to get to the final two. I honestly didn't expect you AT ALL to be in the final two nor have a shot at winning. Not in a million years! Your Lazy and I don't like you, there aren't that many people I come along in my lifetime and I end up not liking, you just happen to be one of those people that I don't like. You just didn't try hard in winning this game and I see no point in you deserving to win either. I don't' even know what the heck you did strategy wise to get to where you are other than forming an alliance with Lisa for the Final 2. You may get my vote if I don't buy what Lisa says to my questions and you may get my vote because I usually don't vote for people who backstab me or lie to me or use me in any way. I don't respect you and I'm sorry if you get offended or upset any way with what I'm saying but you just frustrated me more than anyone else in this house.
Lisa, why do you think I should
still vote for you over EVA, When you stabbed me in the back and lied to my face
and were very hypocritical to me?
James, I am really, truly sorry for the way you felt leaving this game. Voting
you out was one of the toughest decisions for me to make, since I’m a very
emotional person and I felt, and still feel, a lot of guilt over it. But, I do
know that many mistakes can be made when emotions get in the way of a decision,
so I tried to look at deciding to vote you out in only a game aspect and as
objectively as possible. To be completely honest, James, you provided me many
reasons to doubt you, which was the reason why I had to evict you. For a good
amount of this game, we were just friends, and I enjoyed that. It wasn’t until
later that you asked me to join a large alliance of you/Brett/Ellie/JD. That is
what threw me off right there, why bring me into an alliance that large at the
Final 7? It didn’t make any sense to me at first. I just felt that you were
trying to ensure that I would not target you and Brett and use me for the time
being. Yes, you and Brett, I knew about that James. Never once did I let on that
I knew, but I did. I had suspicions for a very long period of time. Those
suspicions were confirmed after you continuously reaffirmed to me that you
wanted to break up Val/Brett, but then once you get HOH, you mysteriously do not
nominate Brett. That was it right there, I knew that you were planning on using
me, and then you would later backstab me if the choice was between Brett and I.
You stated that you felt like I led you on in your statement, well, in this
game, I felt really led on by you, too, by keeping this from me. Once again,
when the vote was between Brett and JD, you were very uncertain, and not
completely open with me. One thing that is important in a *true* ally is
complete trust and honesty. You were never completely open with me to begin
with, so I could never be completely open with you. It’s how it worked out,
nothing against you personally, it’s just what became clear to me through what
you said and your actions. You lied to me, kept things from me, and I knew that,
so I had no good foundation with you to feel comfortable telling you anything
major about my intentions in this game, since I figured you would only try and
use it all against me. Then, only after Brett was gone did you come clean to me,
and tried to get me to keep you safe by offering me an official alliance. At the
time, I wasn’t entirely sure if you would be the right person to take to the
final three with Eva and I, or not, which is why I could not straight out say
*no* to you. I had to keep my options open at that point, since whoever I saved
from the double eviction would ultimately become the one I felt I could trust
the most out of the three nominated. In the end, however, all of the past plans
that you tried to keep from me, especially the alliance with Brett, is why I
felt I could not trust you in the final four and the final three. I wanted very
badly to trust in you, James, but you have to understand that all I ever
received from your end was utter uncertainty. I hope that now you can understand
my point of view better, and why I just felt really uneasy in trusting you
completely.
Through all of that, there is something that I managed to do that is a major
reason you should vote for me to win. That is the fact that I did not let
emotions cloud my better judgment when having to make crucial strategic
decisions. If I had allowed that to happen, then I know that I would not be here
right now. I made decisions after analyzing the entire situation, all of the
variables, and successfully predicted how each person would react to different
situations. Yes, I had to look at things objectively to do this, but, otherwise,
I would have definitely not made it to the final two.
Also, I won the final four competitions in this game, which included 2 straight
HOHs, the Blue Veto, and the Final 3 HOH. At that point in the game, everyone is
trying very hard to win to secure their safety, and winning that many times at
that critical time in the game was not a simple feat. Also, I played this game
out in the spotlight, and strongly start to finish. Not everyone can do that in
a game like this and remain untargeted to the final two, but I managed to
accomplish that. It’s something I’m very proud of, because, for once in my life,
I believed in myself and was not scared to make the bold moves that I knew had
to be made. If you know me, then you know that it’s a rare occasion when I truly
have faith in my capabilities and for once I was able to get past that
insecurity. I still believe that had I not set up Brett’s eviction when I did,
then chances are I would not be here right now. Brett is a player I truly
respect and I admire his game play. I did, however, use his fatal mistake,
saving Val from eviction, and used it as the reasoning for him to be evicted the
next round. The way that I set it up was absolutely perfect, and I successfully
eliminated the most powerful player in the game at the time by identifying his
mistake, and capitalizing on it.
Eva, what did you do you to get the final two?
Hey James, I really don't
have much to say to you because ever since of your eviction, you've been quite
bitter to me about the game. If you hated me that much, I'm sorry that our paths
ever cross. If you don't want to, then after this game, we would never need to
talk to each other again. Other than that, I do thank you for your honesty, even
if it is negative, because it takes a lot of courage for someone to admit to
these feelings, and I for one, always had that courage in me throughout this
entire game.
I've done a lot more than to just "form a F2 alliance with Lisa." Lisa and I
came into this game and literally played it as one person. I knew all of her
alliances, as well as she knew mine ever since of the beginning of the game.
Every single round, we would strategize, plan, analyze and predict each person's
motives and moves. While Lisa played the more dominate role in challenges, I was
more of the "mastermind" behind certain strategies, and together, we were the
perfect combination in order to get this far into the game. I didn't need to
play hard for myself, when I could just try hard to help Lisa in winning the
challenges. It was part of my strategy to give up my chances at HOH to make sure
Lisa would win hers. However, you cannot say I cannot have tried at all -- I
have constantly tried, and if you didn't realize, I've always been placed either
2nd or 3rd in the last part of the competitions.
You said I "flew under the radar." I disagree with that statement, because if I
did, I wouldn't have felt like if either you/Ellie/JD/Brett ever won another HOH
after Round 6, I would have been automatically up. If someone were to flew under
the radar, they wouldn't be always targeted. I knew in the back of some people's
mind, that sooner or later, you knew you would want to get me out. I had also
put myself in many critical decisions, when I finally decided to step up and
tell people that I was HOH -- someone who was under the radar would not have the
guts to do that. Because if you could remember how it was like confessing to
people being HOH, you get constantly bitched at and people would immediately
want to target you after nominations. But I took this risk, simply because I
felt I needed to, in order to ensure Lisa's safety in the game. When you talk
about someone who was under the radar, you'll think of a person who never gets
blamed for anything, and I constantly get blamed for doing something.
Also, I was behind many critical moves in order to get to the final 2. One of
was lying about the HOH. At that time, the major alliance in the household was
you, Ellie, and JD. So, since I had no obligations with you, Ellie or JD, if I
appeared to be HOH and nominated you guys, then it would seem a lot more logical
and reasonable than for Lisa to do it. If people knew Lisa was actually the HOH,
I'm sure people you guys would thought something was going on between Lisa and
I. This would have created mistrust among you guys, and even if Lisa ended up
saving JD, JD would not think Lisa is too trustworthy and might have even tried
to strike up a deal with Val in the F4. It's chances like these that we could
not have take. And since I actually had the double votes (like I originally
said), I was able to be the power voter in the eviction process. This ensures
that one of the two of the strongest players in household will be gone. And
because Lisa kept JD safe (thinking she had the double votes), JD would only
have Lisa to rely on and thus, will continue to trust Lisa until the end of his
eviction. This plan was mainly thought out by me (of course with the help of
Lisa) and although it might have seemed illogical to lie about it at first,
considering people will have found out anyways -- the thing is, no one would
have found out until AFTER they were gone, and after they were gone, Lisa and I
would already be in the F2, which was my whole purpose of my game. Another one
of my bold game move was to evict my other ally, Val in F4. Although it seemed
wrong to evict her, considering my whole purpose of the game WAS to get to the
F2 with Lisa, Val would be a major obstacle to get through if we decided to keep
her instead of JD. Val was a much more stronger competitor than JD and Lisa and
I would have a harder time trying to win a competition. These two were just some
of the strategies I've came up with and executed -- and worked. No, I was not
just a "lazy ass bitch" and didn't do anything. I've done A LOT in this game
behind the scenes, and if I didn't do anything, a mere "f2 alliance with Lisa"
would not have secured my spot.
Out of all the houseguests who do you think should've won and who do you think should never have won?
Tom should have never won,
because he did not make any effort to even save himself from nomination, or get
to know anyone in the game.
If Eva and I weren’t in the final two, then I would have to say that Brett
should have won this game. He had himself in an amazing position, allied with
most everyone, yet was very under the radar. Had he not made several mistakes
that I took advantage of to eliminate him as a threat, then he very well may
have found himself sitting right here in the final two.
Tom definitely did not deserve
to win because he wasn't even on when he was actually in the game!
Although this a bad move for me to make, I'm going to be honest and say how I
really feel -- the person who I think deserve to win the most, other than me, is
Lisa. She's the reason why I am here, and vise versa. Although I've been through
a lot of psycho bitching from certain houseguests during the game, Lisa now has
to go through the exact same bitching since everyone found out that she actually
put them up. She's been through so much, and her being one of my bestest friends
in ORG, I know that away from the game, she's really, REALLY a great person and
her friendliness and kindness was not a fake. She's a strong player, and she
went through a lot to get through where we are now. We backstabbed others for
each other, and we were true to each other until the very end. Even though the
whole jury is pissed off at us, I'm really glad I'm standing beside Lisa for
this and that I'm experiencing this moment with her
Why do you think Eva doesn't deserve to win?
Eva is a very close friend
of mine, and never in my life would I say anything negative about her, because,
to me, there is nothing bad about Eva. She is an amazing player in her own
right, and we worked together in this. So, there are no reasons in my eyes as to
why Eva would not deserve to win.
Why do you think Lisa doesn't deserve to win?
Lisa and I came into this game literally as one. Whenever she wins, it was like I win. Whenever I lose, she loses. We strategize and analyzed this game together, and made every single game decision together. If I give you a reason to not vote for her, then it would be saying to not vote for me either. I do not feel it's right to degrade Lisa's game, because I thought she has played an amazing game, and she deserved it as much as me to win Big Brother Secrecy. Although it might hurt my chances, I decide not to answer this question.
Ellie
Hello Eva and Lisa! Congratulations on making it to
the Final 2.
I can't say I'm very happy with how this game is ending. After I was evicted, I
was hoping JD would make the Final 2 and even Valerie to some extent.
Lying is a part of the game. Who among us can say we never told a lie? I can't.
I lied to people. However, you two ladies took lying to new heights.
I find it really sad and pathetic when people think that LYING=STRATEGY. I
wonder to myself if you both came in to this game with the intention of being
lying bitches or if it just ended up that way... but that's not one of my
questions. I think I already know the answer to that one.
Lisa. You were the only one I had a final 2 alliance with. You were the person I
was most loyal to. Little did I know, huh? You had a final 2 alliance with just
about everyone. I thought we had a genuine friendship but you know what? It's
clear to me now we didn't. Friends don't do that to each other. They just don't.
I feel like everything you ever said to me was a lie and I'm so over any type of
friendship we had. It's gone, it's over, done.. and good riddance at that. I
don't need company like that. It's a brutal world already without people like
you.
You always said this type of game wasn't you. Well, it was and is you. You
played it well. So congrats on lying to everyone, hurting lots of people, and
just being more conniving and evil than the rest of us. I bet you're really
proud of yourself.
Eva. I don't have much to say to you. Like JD said to me earlier, at least with
you I knew where I stood. You were very under-the-radar and sometimes I wondered
if you were even playing this game. You seemed to float through with your past
relationships.
The one thing that sticks out in my mind about you is at the final 6 when you
lied about being HoH. I could see anyone lying about HoH anytime before that
since there would really be no way to tell. But it was basically a guarantee
that we would all find out who was the HoH. So just a little advice, don't lie
about things that will in the short-run reveal you to be a liar.
Now on to my questions. It sounds clichéd but I don't know who I am voting for
and your answers to my questions and everyone else's will determine who gets my
vote.
Eva:
1. Prove to me you played the game... anyway you can. Don't just list all your
lies and your challenge wins. Tell me something strategic that you did aside
from backstabbing Val (which was one of the times I really do think you were
playing this game.)
Before I begin, I want to
defend myself from your statement that "I find it really sad and pathetic when
people think that LYING=STRATEGY. I wonder to myself if you both came in to this
game with the intention of being lying bitches or if it just ended up that
way... but that's not one of my questions. I think I already know the answer to
that one."
You are wrong about the whole lying=strategy thing. Sometimes, depending on HOW
you use your lie, LYING could be a strategy. Aside for that HOH thing, which I
will explain later, I don't think I've ever lied to you, James or JD about where
I stood in the game. I played the game pretty honestly considering I'm
constantly being lied to. You guys never gave me the benefit of the doubt to
even trust me -- I always felt like I'm being targeted, or someone is hiding
something from me, or they are lying to me, and you then blame me for not being
honest with you? I played this game to protect myself and Lisa. If I felt
someone was jeopardizing Lisa and my position in the final 2, then I need to
find a way to get rid of them. That was how I played this game. There comes to a
point in the game where you have to choose one ally over another, and if being
true and loyal to your main ally was a crime, then I don't know what else to
say, because that's what I did throughout the entire game -- I stayed loyal to
Lisa.
Well, I actually never won
a single competition in this game, so there's no way I would be listing my
"challenge" wins. However, I have done a lot of strategic moves in this game.
And now is the perfect opportunity to explain my rationale about "lying about
HOH" (and also explaining how what I did that was something very strategic, and
not just a plain "lies")---
I knew that eventually you guys would find that it was actually Lisa who was
HOH. However, at the time of the eviction, all the way until JD's eviction, no
one really knew if I was lying or not about being HOH. I'm sure you found out
about the HOH thing after JD left. I lied in order to ensure that Lisa and I
would get to the final 2. You see, when "we" (yes Lisa and I both decided
together) was about to nominate 3 people -- although I honestly really like you
as a person, as a player, you are way too strong. I knew that Val liked you as
well, so if I ever decided to keep you for the F4, there was a huge chance you
and Val might decide to align with one another, thus competing against Lisa and
I. This will decrease Lisa's and I chance to be F2 together. And since Val has
automatic Golden, if we didn't put her up first, then Val might decide to save
you, and thus, I will be up. So that's why I put her up originally, so she would
use her veto on herself and not on someone else. Then, if I decided to keep
James.. well, James always seemed to hate me, so I didn't see a point in keeping
someone who hated me that much in the game. Finally comes JD... I felt JD was
perfect to keep for F4, because he wasn't as strong of a competitor as Lisa and
I, and his chances in winning HOH (we didn't know about the Blue Veto) are not
as high as Val, Lisa and I. Also, JD would have no other alliances aside for
Lisa, so he would have to rely solely on Lisa. I knew JD and Val weren't that
close with each other, so if JD did win HOH, he would leave Lisa as the sole
voter anyway, thus she will be out by F4. However, now back to the F6 challenge
where there were only two boxes left -- my box with the extra votes and Lisa's
box as HOH. If people realized Lisa was HOH, then Lisa would have pissed not
only Ellie and James off, but also JD off as well because he would realize she
put him up over me. So even if I did end up saving JD, JD might not have trusted
Lisa as much as he use to because he would realize of me and Lisa's F2 alliance.
Since I had no obligations with any of you 3, claiming I have put you 3 up was
no problem for me. Thus, when JD was saved, he would believe Lisa saved him, and
it will ensure that he will be loyal to Lisa only. And this came really handy
when the F4 competition was actually a Blue Veto. Now, imagine if JD realized my
alliance with Lisa -- and the Blue Veto came and Lisa won. JD could have easily
told Val, and both of them could have tried to vote me out. Even with a 2-2
vote, the jury then votes, and since the majority of the jury doesn't like me
anyways, I would have been out. And you are right, although people would
eventually find out about my lie of being HOH, they wouldn't have possibly found
out until AFTER Lisa and I got into F2 -- which was what we really wanted
anyways.
I think from that example, you can see that I didn't just "cruise" by the game
by doing nothing at all. Just through double evictions, I was able to get rid of
one of the two strongest players in this game. Seeing from that complex plan, I
actually have strategize a lot throughout this game-- it wasn't just about what
happens after eviction, but I also thought about the emotions of the remaining
houseguests if different people stayed, I thought about not only the next round,
but also the next couple of rounds after that. Just by this plan I've developed
during F6, I can honestly say it basically locked me and Lisa for the F2. I HAVE
played the game, and it is because I played the game, this is why I'm here now.
2. If Gerald had made it past the final 2, would you have been more loyal to - him or Lisa? Why?
Honestly, although both are my closest friends in ORG, I would have been more loyal to Lisa than Gerald in this game. I came into Secrecy with one purpose only -- which was to get into the final 2 with Lisa. This was a promise Lisa and I made to each other when we first met each other and we told each other we MUST get to F2 together. I fully intend to keep my promise until the very end. But I did promise myself when this game started that I would not be the reason why Gerald would be evicted, and I was right -- we ended up being nominated together.
3. Do you feel you owe anyone on this jury an apology?
Yes, I felt I owe one
person in this jury an apology.
That person is Val, because I was aligned with her, and the most I could do was
to tell her that I was going to vote for her in F4. But I couldn't do that,
because I was afraid that this would have haunted me and something would have
backfired if I told her in advance. I'm sorry you have to finish the game this
way and you were the hardest person for me to see gone. I hope you do understand
(after I wrote those long essays to you in your jury questions) why I did what I
do... I had to fulfill my promise.
And to the rest of the jury, I really don't feel like I have to really
"apologize" for my actions, because I never had any deals, alliances or
obligations to the other people in the jury who I helped evicted. I do feel bad
that really good people in the game do leave, but this IS a game in the end, and
I'm sure if you were in the same position as me, and these situations presented
itself, you might have done the same thing. Remember -- whatever I did, I did it
for both Lisa and I, and I stayed true to my main ally. But if I have ever
offended any of you, that I am sorry for, because I really didn't mean it.
Lisa:
1. If you were in my position and I was in your position, would you honestly vote for me to win this game? Why or why not?
Ellie, that’s a difficult
decision for me to make. Honestly, I always felt that you had the potential to
be a great player. I remember one conversation that we had, probably one of our
few strategy-based conversations, where you came to me with a plan to break up
JD/James/Brett, and bring in Eva as a third part to our alliance. Your reasoning
and your thought that went into that was absolutely amazing to me, and if you
had done something like that, and made it to the final two, then I most
certainly would have voted for you to win. The most important part of a winner
of one of these games is the fact that they are not afraid to go against the
grain to make moves to get them out of a bad situation and turn it into a good
one. You had the potential for that, Ellie, and if you did pull something
amazing like you described to me that one day, then I would most certainly vote
for you to win without a doubt in my mind, even if you had to go against me in
the process to get there.
2. We now see that you were really only loyal to Eva. Who else did you preach
your false loyalty to besides me? Why did you feel it necessary to be so
deceitful?
Ellie, I know that you
were extremely hurt, and I’m really sorry for that. Many times when we got to
know each other and talked, and during those times I just completely forgot
about the game, and just enjoyed talking to you as a friend. Maybe I shouldn’t
have allowed myself to lose focus on the game, but I just like meeting new
people through these, it’s just how I am. Most of the time, I forget about the
game, and I just enjoy talking to people and getting to know them for who they
are. No, it was not meant to be deceitful as you put it. Believe it or not, I
really did like you, and I still do, even through all that we’ve been through.
However, you must realize that in order for me to succeed in this game, and
ensure that Eva would be beside me at the final two, I could not be outwardly
honest and tell everyone my solid alliance. That would just be an extremely
foolish move, as I think you or anyone else would agree. To just go up to
everyone, make my real loyalty obvious by turning down alliances when they were
offered to me point blank would only send me packing in the early rounds of the
game. Just as you said in your statement, you had to lie, and I had to lie and
keep things secret to protect myself and Eva’s safety. My strategy going in was
to get close enough to the people who may be against “Eva’s” side, and to try
and protect myself and her through that. And no, lying was not my strategy.
Getting close to people to figure out their true intentions, yes, that was my
strategy. All of my decisions were strictly strategy based, and I kept my
emotional attachments to people as friends separate, because if I let my
emotions run my game, then I would have lost, and lost early.
Besides you, Ellie, I only felt I had alliances with JD, who I was always
wondering about, and Val, who I knew always kept things from me. There was also
one with James, but James was extremely confusing to me, and he always was
obvious when he hid things from me. Also, there was Landon, and my alliance with
him was destroyed before it could even begin because rumors started flying
everywhere, and ended up in his eviction.
Now, you also asked me why I felt it necessary to be so deceitful. However, in
this game, the only person that I trusted in totally and felt comfortable with
was Eva. Everyone else gave me obvious doubts time and time again. After all, if
you think about it, everyone was deceitful at one time or another. James, he hid
his final two alliance with Brett, and I knew he would stab me in the back down
the road. He never showed me loyalty, trust, or honesty, so I saw no reason to
give it to him. That would be a very stupid move on my part to keep someone who
showed me nothing but uncertainty. Val, I knew she planned on evicting me at the
final three, in favor of keeping Eva in the final two, so once again, you may
say that I was deceitful to too many people, but, in fact, many people were
being deceitful to me, and I was given reason to doubt them. As for JD, he won
the HOH in round two, and never told me, while I knew all along. I felt like he
had some other allegiance that was more important than me since he had to hide
that. Also, he was in an alliance with you/Brett/James that I was never aware of
until very late in the game. Once again, I felt like I was the one being
deceived. And, you, Ellie, there were a few major reasons why I found it hard to
trust you. Many times Eva relayed messages to me directly from Val that stated
Val wanted to bring you into an alliance with Eva and she. Now, that sent up
tons of warning signs my way. You and Val must have been very close for her to
suggest an alliance like that, possibly even aligned yourselves. Also, you never
told me about your Brett/James/JD alliance, until James clued me in about it. I
kept my cool, and acted happy that it had happened, when, really, it was a huge
threat to my and Eva’s safety. If you really wanted to be that close with me “to
the final two” then you would have been upfront and honest with me, and I would
have had no reason to be wary of your intentions like I was. I still don’t
understand why you wouldn’t tell me something like that, and still hope for me
to trust you completely. It really threw me, because I thought we were closer
than that, Ellie, and hearing that you kept an alliance secret from me like that
was a huge, huge shock. Now, all of the strictly strategy-based moves and
analyses that I made during the game have nothing to do with what I think of
everyone as a friend and a person outside of the game. Yes, you said it made me
seem awful and deceitful, when, really, had I just sat back and done nothing in
this game and just hoped for the best I would have been evicted sooner or later
and gotten trampled over by everyone else in this game. I needed to stand up for
myself, and turn bad situations into good ones. And I did exactly that time and
time again. I was never afraid to make a move to better my position. That
involved putting aside personal feelings and relationships with some players who
had given me reason to doubt their honesty and loyalty, but had I not done that,
I know that I would not be here right now.
3. Do you feel you owe anyone on this jury an apology?
Yes, I feel I owe a few
people an apology, that includes you (Ellie), Val, James, and JD.
If so - who and what would you say to them?
To each of them, I just want to say that, I hope after reading all that I had to
say, that you can understand that I only made these decisions to better ensure
my safety in the game. In my eyes, each of you gave me some sort of doubt, and
my stance on our relationships was always changing, and I was always adjusting
to that. However, getting to know each of you in this game, it was not meant to
as a strategy, to be deceitful, or anything negative like that. To me, personal
relationships and game play had to remain separate, otherwise I would have
fallen victim to my own emotions. But as for the relationships that I developed
with each of you, they all really meant a lot to me as they still do, and I
truly hope that this game hasn’t ruined it. I just hope that now, at least,
after all the time I put into explaining my decisions and thought processes as
best I could, that you can at least understand why and have some answers that
you deserve.
Thanks for your responses. I appreciate the honesty. You both completely deserve final 2. Job well done and good luck to you both
Valerie
So, the backstabbers did it, pulling a
perfect coup, and in the process, made themselves the final 2. Despicable, it
really is. I trusted both of you, and got reassurance from BOTH of you before
the vote that it was going to be for JD.
Lisa, I remember the night of the Blue Veto, we had the following conversation:
me: we can SO do this Lisa
you: eek I know we can so be the final 2
me: it's within grasp!
And then you turn around and VOTE for me. Your vote, out of the three, stung the
most. I was expecting JD's vote, and maybe even Eva's vote, but NOT yours. I
feel so betrayed by you, I cried over your betrayal. I hope you can live with
yourself. I had been told by James not to trust you though, right as he was
leaving, so I was a little leery about taking you to the final 2 if I had the
choice.
As for you, Eva. If I had won the final 3 HOH, you probably would still be
sitting there, but next to me instead of Lisa. So I don't see WHY you voted for
me. I thought we were friends. Friends don't shove knives into friends' backs
and twist the knife.
I cried over your betrayal too. I was blindsided, I was deceived, you and Lisa
found my weak spot (my blind trust) and monopolized on it.
My vote tonight is in the air, neither of you deserve it AT ALL. You're going to
have to drag you and your partner through the mud, hang them up to dry,
basically, make them and you feel like shit because that's what you've done to
me.
As for questions, well, I have a few.
What was the rationale in voting me out? I'd LOVE to
hear it. Don't bullshit me, bullshitters don't get my vote.
There were several reasons that I had for voting you out. First of all, I was
never really sure where your real loyalties were, Val. I knew that you were very
close with Brett and Eva, but you always tried to downplay it. You tended to
know what to say, and what to hold back from telling me in all of our
conversations. There were many instances where I knew you were keeping things
from me, and my trust began to waver. For instance, in round 6, I knew Eva was
“HOH” that round, and you did not tell me that she was until after nominations
were final. If you really wanted to be extremely close with me and have us be in
a 100% trusting relationship, then you would have told me that immediately.
Also, in the double eviction round, you switched your vote last minute on Eva
and I, and that added more doubt into my mind. From those instances among
others, I realized you were a very intelligent player, and I was never quite
sure where our relationship stood in your eyes.
You and I were also in our own alliance for a period of time, and I knew you
were aligned with Eva before me. It became clear to me that, in the chance it
was a you/me/Eva final three, and you won the final HOH, that you would evict
me. In all of the competitions, you were also extremely strong, like the Blue
Veto and boxes reward challenge. There was a very good chance that you could
walk away with the final 3 HOH win, and in that case I would be sent packing in
third place. In my eyes, it was not an intelligent move on my part to bring
someone to the final three who would not take me to the final two. At that
point, I knew you wouldn’t take me there, Val, just as you admitted in your
questions, and those are my reasons for your vote.
There was only really one reason to vote you out instead of JD- you were a stronger competitor than JD. Out of the 4 of us, you had the 2nd best record, and Lisa and I knew you would have seriously gave us a run for our money if we ever had to compete with you in the F3. I remembered how when we 3 had to compete for the Blue Veto, you were literally seconds apart from advancing to Round 2 with Lisa. I could not simply go through that moment again, knowing how great of a competitor you are. Yes, I did figure out that you would have taken me if you won the final HOH, but I wouldn't be satisfied without Lisa by my side. As I said before, my whole game subjective was to get into the final 2 with Lisa, thus, if we were to keep you for the F3, the chances of Lisa and I being in the F2 is a lot slimmer if we just have kept JD instead. And my assumption was right. JD didn't win HOH, and Lisa and I tied for the final HOH. She got the last HOH due to the fact JD was able to pick the winner.
Were you ever HoH? What rounds? What were the REAL reasons you nominated the people you nominated?
I was actually HOH for a
few rounds that no one will probably know about until right now. I was HOH in
the round that Brett and JD were nominated. At that round, you, Val, had just
survived eviction, and I was glad that you had.
I was never close to Brett, but I knew that you and Brett would protect each
other until the end. I also knew that not only was he aligned with you, but he
was aligned closely with the other side of the game, James, Ellie, and JD. It
was easy for me to see that Brett was my biggest threat in the game. As long as
Brett was there, he had a pull on nearly everyone in the game, and that would
only hurt me in the future. I also figured, if I get Brett out of the picture,
then you would protect Eva and me more, and that was another positive of making
this move. At this point in the game, I was very worried for Eva’s safety, so I
felt I needed to ensure you would stay truly loyal to her and only her by having
Brett leave the game. So, my goal that week was to put up Brett alongside
someone that would ensure Brett’s eviction. Now, that “someone else” was
difficult to decide on my part. I didn’t want you to leave, Val, so I stayed
away from the Val/Brett nomination, because I knew that you would probably leave
in that case due to James, Ellie, and JD’s votes. I decided after much thought
that JD would be the best nomination, because I knew that I could find the
second vote for JD to be safe in Ellie, or possibly even James. I kept this a
secret, because I did not want JD, Ellie, or James to know that I was really the
HOH, since it wasn’t yet the right time to go against any of them. This was a
very crucial move on my part. I still think that if Brett stayed in the game
after that round, that I would not be where I am right now. I played my cards
exactly right, fortunately, and he was the one to leave that week.
Once again, in the next “Winter Wondering” round I won HOH, my second in a row.
Now, there is a very good reason as to why I could not reveal myself as the real
HOH. You won the Golden Power of Veto, Val, and were automatically a voter. Now,
I knew that I had to keep Eva safe, no matter what, otherwise she would be gone
in a heartbeat since she had the penalty vote prize. There was one problem with
that, however, and that was that whoever survived the eviction round out of
James, JD, and Ellie, would obviously realize that Eva and I were very close
since I had kept her safe instead of them and may nominate the two of us in the
Final Four if they won HOH. Also, Ellie’s gift forced me to nominate Eva or Val.
If I nominate Val, like I did, and if she knew that I did, she would have become
suspicious of my and Eva’s relationship. So, as Eva pretended to be the HOH, she
could say that she was forced to nominate you, Val, so there would be no
arguments or wondering about that. Also, whoever was left safe after the
eviction, then would figure “Eva and Val” were still the main competition, and
Eva and I would remain untargeted as a pair. I also had to ensure that whoever
was safe that week would be on good terms with me so that I could be the sole
voter to save Eva if that person won Final Four HOH. I’ll explain why I had to
vote out Ellie and James in the voting history question later on.
The round after that, I won my third competition in the row, the Blue Veto,
which isn’t really HOH, but it stood in place of it. There were no nominations
that round, so there’s nothing to discuss in that area.
I also won the final HOH, one which did not come with nominations.
No, I was actually never
the HOH in any rounds of this game. Surprised? However, during the game, I did
"confessed" of being HOH. And I'm sure you would wonder why...
Even though I didn't exactly win, I completed the responsibilities of an HOH.
Each time Lisa got HOH, we will always decide together on who to nominate, which
pair nominated would achieve the results we wanted, and how it would affect us
in the long run. And not once had the plans failed, that the strategy did not
work. During the game, I actually took a lot more heat for Lisa because even in
the beginning, when I denied being HOH, everyone thought I was HOH every time
Lisa won. There were a lot of people bitching to me about how I should admit
being HOH when I really wasn't -- or they will get pissed off at me when they
were nominated. Thus, I took it to my advantage then. I didn't want people not
trusting Lisa -- if James/Ellie/JD stopped trusting Lisa, then there is a
possibility they might pair Lisa and I up together. Since Veto isn't always in
every round, there was no way I would have allowed Lisa and I being up together.
So, I came up with the plan to take advantage of this whole secrecy thing and
told people I was HOH. Because people thought I was HOH, and I had no
obligations to James/Ellie/JD, putting them up was something somewhat
"reasonable" for me to do, yet it was not if people knew it was Lisa. The plan
worked out perfectly -- JD trusted Lisa to the very last moment, and even
decided to give the HOH to her. But then again, it wasn't like he had much of a
choice, if he gave it to me, the same results would have happened. But, if he
stopped trusting Lisa in the F4 and sensed that there was something up with Lisa
and I, he could have went up to you and maybe even try to come up with a plan to
evict one of us. It might have even worked. Thus, I felt it was necessary to
take the heat for the HOH, and lie. It was just all strategy to ensure that Lisa
and I would get to the F2 together.
Why should I vote for a backstabber to win?
There are several reasons why you should vote for me to win, Val. The first being that I won four crucial competitions in a row all at the end of the game, which is no easy task for a player. From day one of this game, I set out with a certain strategy, and everything worked out as I planned. Every single round, the player that I had to vote out was the evicted player for that round, which proves how well my strategy worked in this game. I made sure to identify and eliminate my immediate threats, and kept Eva safe along the way by staying close to people to further ensure that. Yes, I did play this game strongly, but if I hadn’t, then I know that I would not be here right now. Some people were hurt along the way, and that part of the game was the worst for me emotionally. But, I never let myself lose focus. I still believe that the mistake many players make is when they allow emotions to cloud their better judgment. A good example would be the infamous mistake of Marcellas not using the Golden Power of Veto to save himself, and ensuring his eviction, which was clearly an emotionally clouded decision. Yes, I developed relationships in this game, but I was able to step back from each relationship and evaluate it in terms of the game, without letting emotions get in the way. Every decision I made was for the good of my position in the game, and, I think that I must have done something right to be here right now. That may make me seem like an awful person, but all of my decisions were made to ensure myself and Eva a safe position in the game. It was not an easy task to get here, and I do realize that I did the “dirty work” part of everything. One particular strategic move that I know turned the game around to my advantage was achieving Brett’s eviction. I knew he had you, James, Ellie, and JD protecting him, which was everyone except me and Eva at that point. To break apart his network of alliances was an extremely difficult task, and I had to ensure that everything was set up perfectly for Brett to leave, since he was my biggest threat. I hope that now you realize that I put a strong effort into this game in many ways, but especially by winning many competitions, successfully eliminating threats to my safety, and making it to the final two with the person I trusted most.
Before I begin answering this
question -- I thought I would like to point out that I don't believe I am a
backstabber. I only lied/betrayed to those who hide from me, either it's their
real genuine game thoughts, or what they actually do in the game which
completely contradicted their words. Can you honestly say that you have NEVER
hide a single game thought from me? It's hard for me to return the trust that I
have not yet completely received it. But I do understand this is a game, and
people have to lie in order to get farther in the game. I think every single
person in the jury (maybe aside for Donna and Krista, because I don't believe
they ever lied about anything) have lied to someone at least once. I don't think
it's fair for me to get bashed for lying because it's simply what people do in
games, even if they didn't want to do it in the first place. I think what is
most important is that I didn't lie or betray someone who I actually trusted the
most -- which was Lisa in this case. I played a completely loyal and faithful
game to her and I never made a decision that would jeopardize our position in
the game. Thus, I don't believe "backstabber" was really the right label for me,
but if you truly felt I did, then all I can say is sorry.
Anyhow, now onto your actual question -- I think you should vote for me because
I've been a good player in this game. Although I did not seem to be to
"dominate" in challenges, and most thought I went "under the radar," what they
didn't realize is that I probably done most of the strategizing in this game and
made some of the boldest moves, such as coming up with the plan to be the fake
HOH. If I didn't come up with this plan, there might have been a possibility
that this would have been a completely different F2. I also helped to identify
some of the biggest threats in the game -- such as Brett, you, James and Ellie.
Not all players can always identify the real true threats to the game, and evict
them. Through careful planning, I was able to help Lisa (through her wins as
HOH) to get them evicted. Also, like I said before, even though I wasn't HOH, I
played like an HOH whenever Lisa won, and I took the heat for it. Lisa and I
played a VERY different game, and we had to do that in order to compliment each
other -- she was the challenge whore who had a lot of alliances, and I was the
one who had most of my alliances were out by Round 5, but I also came up with
some of the boldest strategies -- it was because of our opposite playing that
made us able to come together in the F2. I have been able to take many risks
throughout this entire game and I have faced all my consequences head-on and not
ever hid behind anyone. The one thing people cannot say I didn't do was that I
always showed where I stood in the game, and was never too "evasive" about
anything. Even with your own eviction Val, you even admitted that you could have
possibly seen me evicting you -- which meant that I have somewhat hinted to you
of which way I might have swayed. I've probably got bitched at the most in this
entire game, and I'm still standing very strong here today. So, if you believe
the winner for this game should be someone who played, strategize and analyzed
behind the scenes, then I believe I would be a good candidate for that.
Give a nickname to each
member of the jury and explain why you picked it.
Donna – “Silent Strategist” – I chose
this nickname for Donna because of the times that I did talk to Donna, she was
always very quiet, and did not reveal much or anything about her strategy. Later
in the game, however, I realized that all along she was a very intelligent
player and had several alliances formed that I wasn’t aware of. So, I nicknamed
her the “Silent Strategist.”
Brett – “Power Player” – Brett was, without a doubt, my biggest competition in
this game. He had alliances set up with a good majority of the house, Val,
James, Ellie, and JD, and tried to deny and discredit his alliance with Val,
like to James and Ellie, to gain more power in the game. Undoubtedly, he was a
“power player.”
Krista – “Vanished” – I nicknamed Krista this because while she was around at
the beginning of the game, she really did vanish after about round two. After
that, I was never online at the same time as her, so we never even got a chance
to say hi in this game, which I find to be really unfortunate. I wish she had
been around more to get to know her, but that just wasn’t the case.
Ellie – “Sweet yet Shaded” – I got to know Ellie a lot in this game, and, on a
personal level, I like her a lot, and I still do. She was always very sweet, and
that is why I have the “Sweet” part in her nickname. The “shaded” part comes
into her game play. There was a lot that I knew about Ellie, but there was also
a lot that I did not know. I always had a sense she was hiding something from me
at times, and so I became very nervous about her loyalty to me in the game.
James – “Confusion” – I was never really sure where James and I stood in the
game. For a while, we were friends, but not official allies. Then, I figured out
he was aligned with Brett to the final two, and I was very suspicious of his
real goals in the game. Yes, I knew where James stood in the game as a whole,
but I was never sure what his exact intentions were for our relationship in the
game, so that is why I nicknamed him “Confusion.”
JD – “Real” – With most everyone else in the game, I sensed an air of
dishonesty, and other agendas when getting to know me. But with JD, it was
different. Every time we talked, I just completely forgot about the game, and
just really loved getting to know him for who he was.
Val – “Strength” – Val, you were always a very strong and determined player. You
were very good at challenges, and, as I said before, you knew what to say, and
what not to say.
Donna - Mother Dearest (her
being the oldest, but I find very understanding and is probably more sympathetic
than most of the jurors in this game.)
Krista - Queen Cool (she always gave me the whole "cool" vibe, and had a lot of
confidence in her. The "coolness" to others might also come off as having a lot
of attitude as well)
Brett - Mr. Myanmar Sir (he hosted the survivor game I was in! The MisterSir
comes in because I "respect" him as a player because he was such a good
strategist.)
Ellie - Household Sweetheart (she was the house's most beloved girl, everyone
knew how nice she was and she was probably one of the most friendliest person in
this house)
James - Jumping J (jumping is more of an comparison of how his emotions are
like.. his emotions are always going up and down, thus the whole "jumping"
concept)
Val - Black Jack (when I play poker at school, Jacks are usually the wildcards.
To me, you were like a wildcard to me, because I could never truly read you,
which was why I couldn't completely trust you. The whole black part comes from
the whole concept of "mysterious" and "dark.")
JD - Smooth Operator (I find JD kind of entertaining to talk to, and he gives me
the whole "charmer" vibe)
Write a poem of at least
10 lines with the following topic "Why _______ Should Get Valerie's Vote." It
must rhyme.
Why Lisa Should Get Valerie’s
Vote
Going into this Big Brother game
I needed someone to help keep me sane
My closest friend Eva provided me that
A Final 2 with her, that was my task
Strategically speaking, I had a plan
Protect Eva from the other side of the clan
I worked my way in, as she did with Val
Separate but secret, we did it quite well
As time wore on, things got intense
I soon saw Brett as my arch nemesis
By winning HOH his game was done
But, oh no, all the fun had just begun!
In HOH I once again came out on top
Two more games were put to a stop
Blue Veto was tough, but I won again
Soon enough, we neared the end
Lisa, Eva, and, finally, JD
It was an amazing final three
Stress amounts began to grow
HOH again, four times in a row
So here we are, the final two
Eva and I, who really knew?
Every single plan I had
Never once turned out bad
And that promise from day one
Back when the game had just begun
I worked so hard to bring us this far
Loyal friends and allies, it’s what we are
Why Eva Should Get
Valerie's Vote
Val, so you asked,
Why I should get your vote.
I shall complete this task,
So you can start to gloat.
Though I was not loyal to you,
You cannot deny my game,
And that I was very loyal to,
Lisa was the name.
Though I won no competition,
There were many times I stepped up to the confusion,
With my strategies, I was not a bad addition,
Although the wins were a major delusion.
I played like a player,
Never once backed down,
Have put up many layers,
I acted like an unidentified clown.
I strategize and planned,
To make sure I have it right,
As the nominated stand,
I think I am quite bright.
As I conclude my poem of thought,
Of honor and pride,
This journey was quite distraught,
I couldn't help but sighed.
I'm glad it's over,
Because I did it with a friend,
We didn't need a four-leaf clover,
To make it to end.
Thank you for your answers. My
mind isn't made up, and in a way, I feel even more betrayed, listening to what
you have said.
I don't know if my mind will ever be made up, I like both of you, but this is
not a personal vote. I'm deciding the winner of a game, not who my best friend
is.
It's painful, having been backstabbed like I was, and then to read about the
behind-the-scenes crap on the backstabbing. And, really, so soon too.
I've cried over this, as I have said. I'm an emotional person, and I think
that's why I've reacted how I did. I feel a tear or two coming now.
I'm going to have to do some deep thought on this. I'm not going to ask any more
questions at this time because I really don't feel like doing that.
JD
I just want to start off by congratulating each of
you women for making it all the way to the final two. I enjoyed the entire game
up until the moment I realized what a mistake I had made in trusting somebody
110%. I’ve walked away from previous games telling myself I’d never do it again.
Well I did, and look where it landed me.
Eva, I think you are a really nice person. We’ve talked throughout the duration
of this game, some rounds more than others. You saved my skin the two rounds
prior to my actual eviction. I think you have genuine ethics when it comes to a
game, and I respect you for that. I always knew where I stood with you; I don’t
feel as if there were many fabrications on your part towards me.
Lisa… the one person I never expected to receive a vote from. Ironic that the
only vote that evicted me was yours. I can honestly say that I would have
preferred to have been evicted by the rest of the house long ago if I knew it
was going to come down to this. I have a difficult time accepting the fact that
you are so incredibly sorry when I learn more of how much you tricked other
people. It appears as if I was no different than the rest of the crowd, so
please don’t feed me bull saying otherwise. (Unless you can thoroughly justify
it, and when you do, justify your choice to still evict me.)
Lisa, was there any
chance that you evicted me due to the fact that you thought you’d crush Eva in a
final 2 vote? If that was a reason, judging from everyone else’s questions…
you’ve been fooled.
JD, I know how
upset you are with me on a personal level, and you have a right to be in that
aspect. However, my reason for evicting you was not due to the final two vote
perspective you mentioned. Honestly, until you mentioned it just there, it did
not even enter into my mind. Actually, my reasoning leading up to that decision
is really in-depth and I’m going to explain exactly for you what happened, since
you do have a right to know the truth.
First, though, you have to understand that I trusted in and was loyal to the one
person who was completely with me 100% and open with me, and that is Eva, who I
brought with me to the final two. Eva and I have been best friends since another
game several months ago, and I did not for a second have to worry about her
loyalty at any point in this game, like I did with everyone else. Every single
move I made was not looking out for my own well being, but for Eva’s. As soon as
Eva and I saw each other in this game, we were together until the end, and
looked out for each other in much different ways. We must have done something
right, because here we are together in the final two.
A huge part of getting here, however, was the beginning of the game strategy.
Immediately, I knew that for no one to catch onto Eva and I as such strong
allies, that we would have to viewed as on “separate sides” of the game. Eva was
already friends with Gerald, which also brought her alliances with Val, Krista,
and Brett. As for me, the task was not nearly that simple. I was not “in” on
that side, and I knew that I would have to protect Eva and myself by getting
close to the other people in the game that Eva was not already aligned with.
This was not an easy task by any means, because it meant that I would have to be
really alert and catch onto things to figure out potential alliances. I knew
that this would involve me really putting myself in danger, but, for once, I was
determined in this game to play strongly, to prove to myself that I could be an
openly strong player and make it to where I am right now with my trusted ally,
Eva.
Yes, JD, this included trying to figure out your intentions and position in the
game. At the time, I was just trying to get a feel for how you might be playing
the game, and who you might be aligned with. The day that you approached me for
an alliance, which was right between round one and round two, I was just not
sure what to think of you at that point as a potential ally quite yet. However,
when you get approached for a one on one alliance like that, if you say no that
early on, then you are definitely seen as suspicious, and I know I would have
been targeted, and probably even evicted for a mistake like that. So, we became
allies, JD, and then came round two. This round was awful for me, because Eva
was nominated. Now, right before nominations were announced, you were talking to
me about “wouldn’t it be funny if Gerald got nominated?” and also stated that
you felt Eva and Gerald were too close for comfort. Guess what happened that
round? Gerald and Eva were nominated. The night before I suspected you had won
HOH again, since you even revealed that you could compete this week. It was all
just too coincidental. At that point, yes, JD, I hate to say it but I lost a lot
of trust in you in this game. If you really did want to be so close with me in
this game, then you would not have hesitated for a second to tell me you were
HOH. I’m the type of player that, in order for you to receive my 100% trust and
loyalty, you must be open to do so as well. With you, I could tell you were
always holding something back from me about the game. This proved to me that,
for some reason or another, you felt no need to tell me you were really the HOH,
even when the clues were too obvious for me to ignore.
Morally, for each of you, where do you draw the line? At what point in a silly online game do you feel like it has gone too far when it comes to deception and misleading others to advance yourselves?
Honestly, there has not
been to a point yet where I felt I completely wronged another person and that I
was an evil person for doing the things I've done. Maybe because I never played
enough games in the first place to experience that kind of moral problems. I do
admit I lie in games -- doesn't everyone lie in games? I guess it just depends
how far you take those lies to, and if they are more for a strategic reason or
for a more personal reason. My biggest lie, to you personally, was when I lied
about being HOH. But that lie, was for strategic reasons only, and I had to in
order to ensure Lisa and I get to the final 2 together. If someone were to
explain their rationale for their strategic lie, I would have probably praised
them for their brilliance. However, there are some lies where I don't feel it's
necessary to tell, where I feel the lie might have morally crossed to completely
deceive a person. For example, a certain evicted houseguest had always told me
how much they liked me on personal IMs. Yet from others and in public, I heard
how this houseguest is actually quite annoyed with me and that I completely
anger them all the time. I didn't think THAT kind of lie is necessary, because
if you didn't like a person -- don't talk to them. There is no need to
COMPLIMENT them and say how cool of person they are when you don't really feel
the same. I don't feel those type of lies are really for strategic reasons. If
they wanted to be "cool" with me, they could just simply message me for a bit
and just do small talks, without all the bullshiet. I find that kind of morally
wrong.
Thus, I think of myself as a player whose honest with those who are honest with
me. If I ever had the benefit of a doubt that a certain player is not as honest
with me even though they are supposedly "aligned" with me, or that they are
hiding something from me, then I don't feel like I should keep on trusting them
anymore. So when do something that strategically advances me farther to the
game, and in result, I ended up betraying my so-called "ally", I only do it
because I feel like that person might have end up betraying me first. I don't
feel that the other person should get that mad at me because they never really
trusted me that much in the first place. However, at that point of the game, I
usually DO hint them that my trust for them has wavered, and I felt that for
them. This game was no different, and that I have done that to my other ally,
Val n this game. Even Val admitted that she felt that she could sense I might
even end up voting for her (instead of you) in the F3. And of course, I won't
full blown start bitching at them that we aren't aligned anymore -- that's just
a stupid move for anyone in the game to make. I do understand this is a game. I
don't expect someone to be completely loyal to me, if I don't really feel the
same for them. So, if I were to "map out" an eviction of a houseguest who I'm
just friends with, and we're not really "aligned" in the game strategically, I
don't feel that is wrong. If my friend really "trusted" me, they would have
asked for an alliance in advance anyways. But obviously, if we're just friends
in the game, and nothing more, it's obvious that they already have other plans
and other alliances to shield them from nomination. So, in times like these, I
don't feel that is really "wrong," because we were simply not aligned.
Anyhow, back to your actual question, I
guess now that I typed everything through and see myself how I work in game, I
can frankly say that I draw the line when I feel like it's going to hurt someone
who I REALLY trust in the game, who completely trusts me back 100% as well. If I
never sensed any dishonesty, disloyalty or secrecy from my ally, and I ended up
screwing them over just so I can advanced myself farther in the game -- I cannot
allow myself to do that, ever. For example, if you didn't realize it already,
before this game, Lisa and I were already best friends from the first game we
played together. Thus, when we realized we were in the same game together, we
already promised one another that we're going to enter this game with one
purpose only -- to get to the final 2 with one another. She was someone I truly
trusted 100%, and I never had any doubts with her. Thus, throughout the entire
game, I would constantly put myself as a target, so I can ensure her safety in
this game. (That explains why I decided to lie about HOH and take the blame for
it twice.) I had to make sure that when we arrive at the final 3 or 4, she would
have someone with her who trusts her completely. However, if an obstacle occurs
where I have an option to screw Lisa over to farther myself in the game, I would
have not take it if I would end up have to betray my ally. I would have tried to
find another way to get around this, or whatnot. And if I can't find the other
way around, I would even be happy to leave the game, if my leaving would end up
advancing my partner.
There is a line in that I would never spread false rumors or lies about someone just to make them look bad. That, in my eyes, is a very low thing to do in a game. If you want to target someone, then you have to make sure you have good reason to do so. To me, in this game, every decision I made to eliminate someone from the game had its good reasons. Whether it be personally lying to me, keeping things from me, or being a threat to my and Eva’s safety, every single move I made had good reason, and stayed true to my promise to Eva for us to be in the final two together. Yes, I agree there is a point where you can go too far with deception with someone who you know is being completely upfront with you. However, in this game, there was only one person who was completely upfront with me, and she’s sitting beside me in the finals.
Obviously it’s different for most of us and I think an argument can be made that typically it’s those of us who have no real regard for other’s feelings who make it the furthest. Is that a fair statement to make on my behalf? If not, explain why you are different and I shouldn’t stereotype you as a conniving and ruthless player.
I frankly don't believe this is a fair statement on your behalf to make. I got this far to the game BECAUSE I had a large consideration for my main ally's feelings and position in the game -- and that person is Lisa. Time and time again, whenever Lisa won HOH, and it was a "secret" about it, I had to step it up and take the blame for it, due to strategic reasons to keep her safe. If people were to find out that Lisa won HOH and she has put them up, they would have been seriously pissed off and angry at her to a point where even the remaining people of the game won't trust her anymore. Thus, I didn't mind putting a huge target on myself, because I had no obligations to the people Lisa was going to put up for nomination. Even though I ended up getting TONS of bitching from some of the nominees and accusations, for the sake of my one true ally, I thought that in order to see her getting to the F2 with me, everything was well worth it. And I thought that because I'm standing beside someone who I have been completely loyal to since day one of the game, it does show that I have real emotional attachment to this game and the people in it. Of course, that statement is all about perspective -- it's hard for someone to have real regards for EVERYONE'S feelings in the game. Because eventually, there will be a point in time where you have to choose one over the other. And that statement is also about perspective, because it also depends on who that person might be loyal to in the end. In Val's perspective, I know she thinks I was inconsiderate to her feelings, yet in Lisa's perspective, she would think I've been her bestest friend and ally throughout the entire game. Of course, I had my reasons why I end up staying loyal to Lisa instead of doing it to Val, and those reasons are strictly because I can trust Lisa a lot more. So, it really depends on who you do end up choosing to help over at the end, and for some, if that person isn't them, they might feel that people have seriously screwed them over. So sure, maybe in an evicted player's personal point of view, they might have believed that I was a conniving and ruthless player -- but in an outsider's point of a view, the only reason why that player believes so is because in order to stay truthful to MY main ally, I was conniving and ruthless to them. I have never came to this game, thinking about screwing Lisa over. I even figured out that if Lisa and I were in the final 2, she might even win this entire thing because of her spotless winnings record, but because I felt I should be truthful to myself, to my own feelings and obligations, because I chose to be a caring, considerate player and friend, that is why I'm standing here before you today.
To be honest, I do not think that is a very fair statement at all. The reason that I did make it as far as I did, in reality, was because I held Eva’s position in the game and her feelings in a very high regard, and protected her as much as I could at all times. Yes, I know that from other points of view I may be seen as “conniving and ruthless.” However, every decision that I made in this game was for Eva and I, as a team, and never once did I waver in my loyalty to her. Others gave me reason to doubt them, but with Eva, I worked very hard to stay true to our final two promise and I brought her here. When people became a threat, not to me, but to Eva, I eliminated the threat to better our position in the game. Every day, I was continually trying to evaluate not my own safety, but how I could make Eva’s position a little bit more stable. So, to you, or to someone on the outside looking in, it may seem like I was conniving and ruthless in my game play. The truth is that I played this game and made the decisions I did in order to secure Eva and I in the final two. Yes, I had to take some criticism for it, and I expected that, but it’s well worth it in the end, because I made it here with my one true ally.
Thank you very much… Lisa I know it seems like I’m not going to vote for you but I’m letting you know now that my mind isn’t made up.
JD then sat down, he was the last jury member to go and as everyone shook their heads that they were satisfied with all their questions and answers it was time for them to leave. All eight of them slowly filled out of the door. Some of them having a new found respect for Eva and Lisa, while some of them left hating them even more. Eva and Lisa also felt relieved that the game was finally out of their hands, they both sat down to give their reflections on their time spent in the house and the juries drilling...
Eva
I have a feeling Lisa is going to win. I mean,
she played a much harder game than me. But that's just me thinking. Hopefully
I'll get 1 or 2 pity votes eh?
I feel so bad for Lisa, she's so down and depressed from these questions. I must
admit, I'm not exactly in the greatest mood because basically all of them are
saying how undeserving of a F2 Lisa and I was.. but god, I think we are QUITE
deserving to be here. We played a game where we never doubted each other. We
played a GREAT game actually, and I probably pulled off one of ORG's greatest
strategic moves ever -- okay, not really, but I gotta make myself feel better
after these shitty jury questions.
I really don't understand Val's little
"feedback" after we answer her questions. I was actually kinda ticked off
reading that because how can you be MORE mad after reading that, when we
obviously shot her down about that whole betraying shiet? I mean, she's done HER
fair amount of betraying and lying and deceiving and she still blames US for
being loyal to each other? And with her final question, all she really wanted to
hear is the fact that WE WILL take her if there isn't one of us in the
competition. She's just angry at the fact we chose each other over her. But
whatever her decision is, I know hopefully it's going to be a fair one.
Lisa
Ellie also seems really hurt, going by her
comments. And I sort of understand them, and then I don't. There were far more
than several times that Ellie lied to me or kept things from me. She had an
alliance with Brett/JD/James that she did NOT plan on telling me about until
James clued me in, and I was smart enough to play all *dumb lyke yay we're safer
then!* about it. Seriously, Ellie, you say that lying should not equal a
strategy? Well, you did it to me and gave me reason to not trust you.
James, I don't understand him either. He keeps a final two alliance from me,
yells at my final two partner, and continues to get mad at me for "betraying"
him. James had a plan, I was no part of that plan up until he evicted his own
final two ally and needed to beg people to keep him from drowning in his own pit
of mistakes. If he had nominated Val/Brett then things would have been fine for
him, bad for me, but he made that mistake, and I capitalized on it. I didn't let
that opportunity go to achieve Brett's eviction and cause the
Brett/JD/Ellie/James alliance's downfall.
Val, I feel bad for, too, I enjoyed meeting her and becoming closer with her.
She was just too big of a threat to take final three, and that's a fact that no
one can refute. I <3 Val, but her eviction was necessary to get here with Eva.
And what is up with Donna holding a grudge against me? She has no reason to. I
never did a thing to her, and now she thinks I'm this horrible person for
playing the game better than she did to survive that eviction. Her statement
about me allying with everyone just to save my butt was completely untrue, I
already had alliances set up, and I saw no reason to campaign.
::sigh::
I'm about to have a nervous breakdown.
I really loved meeting JD, Elllie, James,
Val...I loved meeting all of them...and now its just...some of them just can't
be objectionable in their statements. I had so much reason to doubt them, and I
was playing thisgame strong for Eva. Only for Eva, not even for myself at this
point.
Is it too hard to believe that someone can love you as a friend, but have to
eliminate you as an enemy? I just...
I don't know how to feel anymore. I <3 Eva, we've stayed true to each other,
that's why I played how I had to, for her, for US, for LIVA, and no one seems to
want to accept that
This game in retrospect...and everyone in it.
TOM - Tom, I don't think we spoke one word this entire time. He was rather
silent, and didn't even stand up for himself when he was nominated. I'm sure
he's nice enough, but, did anyone get to know him?
Gerald - The past is the past with Gerald. I never hated him, and I really hope
he's over all that dumb stuff, too.
Landon - If there's anything this game has shown me about Landon, then it has
shown me that he gets offended very easily. Now that he knows I had to vote him
out, which I really do feel guilty for on a personal level, things will never be
the same. I just wish, I really wish and hope that someday, someday Landon can
show his inner good self all of the time, and not get upset so easily. Because
inside there's a good person, and that's the Landon I've come to like as a
friend. I think he needs to understand that games are games, and there was no
saving him in this game. I just hope someday he can accept that.
Donna - Donna, I could always tell you were holding back in our conversations.
From what I hear now, you are a very sweet person beneath it all, and I regret
never getting to see that side of you.
Krista - I never spoke a word to Krista in this game either, so there's not much
I can say about her since I just don't know her at all.
Brett - Brett made me so paranoid in this game for Eva and I. I really do think
he's the nicest guy, but we just never got to know each other enough. I think
that's because right away I knew he would be my biggest threat to protecting
myself and Eva. I do come out of this game respecting him a lot as a player;
he's very good at these games, and I'm glad to have played with him.
James - James, I still do not understand, and I'm not sure if I ever will. I do
like him a great deal, but his strategy still boggles me. He had a perfect
situation and wasted it many times. His one downfall, I think, is that he does
not know what to say and what not to say. Cussing out the HOH, "Eva," before
breaking a tie that could easily send you home is never a good idea.
Ellie - I feared Ellie a lot as a player, but, as a person, she is amazing.
Every conversation we had was mostly non-game, and I loved it, it kept my mind
of of this Secrecy thing.
Val - At first, I was scared of Val in this game. Then, we became "allies" and I
was never sure where we stood. Our relationship was always up and down in my
eyes gamewise. But now, with everything sorted out, I <3 Val. She is so awesome,
seriously.
JD - JD always confused me. From nominating Eva, to keeping alliances from me,
it was always confusing. I'm not sure where we stand right now, and I'm not sure
if I ever will. I wish it were different...
Eva - You know by now how I feel about Eva! I <3 Eva and this game has been for
the both of us to make it here. But you already knew that by now.
And Secrecy...
Secrets, secrets, we all had our secrets. They drove us crazy, made us paranoid,
and made this game exciting. Playing it beside my closest friend and helping
each other get here as a team, that is what I loved about this game. Yes, I may
have come off badly in this game, but anyone that truly knows me and understands
me for who I am can understand that is not the case at all. I just played this
game for one reason, and one reason only. I stayed true to my word, and our
friendship, and that will never change.
If I win, or if I lose, I'm a winner, we're both winners. You could end the game
right now, and I would be happy. We even wanted to be co-winners, but apparently
that's not allowed. You can still change your mind on that if you want, Joe, I
won't mind
But you know what? There's no need for a winner. I've already won.
Eva and Lisa now anxiously await the revealing of the winner, they have since left the house and have been living their normal lives for the past few months in the anticipation of this exciting event. The votes have remained a secret and will be revealed in a LIVE FINALE, crowning either Eva or Lisa as the winner of Big Brother Secrecy!
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